Take Your Medicine

AYYYY!!!
Alright today is monday and It's going actually ok today...
I was feeling pretty rough this weekend but I'm getting to the point
I don't care so much that I have a good day..
maybe I'm becoming a yes man
no
I'm not
We are editing videos and working on games at the same exact time
I don't know how we can juggle that but I guess they think we are superman
just one giant superman...
NEWSFLASH! We aren't
Show this saturday in Summersville...can't wait!

Quote Of The Day

"I can resist everything except temptation.My body breaks, I'm intact inside.My human instinct, I can love unconditionally."

-Silverstein

I'm So Sick...

I've had it with all of this.
For some reason this class stresses me more than it should.
Everytime I step through the door
even if i don't speak my classmates and teachers say things to me about me.(negative things)
They might say I'm over reacting but lately I don't trust anyone, I don't beleive anyone, and I don't want to listen to people that all they do is put me down. It's not just in this class it's outside of school. No matter how much hard work and effort I put into something it doesn't matter to most people.

I'm done
I'm finished
I'm starting to be pushed over my limit with everything.



"Stay silent, please for now and let me move on, I'm so tired of playing these games with my heart, I've been around the world and back for you."

-A Day To Remember

Seconds To The End What's Gonna Be Pull The Trigger

Another checking in with the blog.
We presented our ideas for games a while back,but lately we are working on videos.
Our team is cutting and editing as I speak.
The video is going to be based upon Cell phone policies in school and telling students they shouldn't text while in class while trying to get an education.
I had a pretty good weekend.
I hung out with my girlfriend and just hung out with friends, had a regular friday night..:)
Updated the wikis and even found an old friend to message from a different school.
Band practice today..time to get low with autumn sunrise.

Quote of the Day

"When The Sun and Moon Collide...We'll See you in hell."

-It Dies Today

We beg for Nothing but Mercy

We uploaded our paper prototype and I guess we all have our "jobs" ,but I guess I get frustrated when my team thinks that I change things each time that I tell them about our concept and that's not it. Our game is really complicated and has a lot of things that we have to do for it and each time I tell them about the game they ask questions and we start arguing,but I don't want to be in charge...I want to help,but sometimes it feels like i shouldn't. I put a link on my wiki to the team wiki and that went smoothly. I'm trying to have a good day,but once again it's hard and it's more complicated than I thought things were going to be.

Quote Of the day


"The last drop of the bottle fell out and we were way to late, farewell my friend."
-A Change of Pace

I Pray your a failure....

We are updating once again......yea boring I know but I guess it has to be done. We just had a great breakfast..I don't usually eat breakfast but it was pretty satisfying. We put some more information on our wikis for the whole world to take hold. I'm starting to get pretty anxious to get this game going....It should be fun.
Quote of the Day

"...and it'll be a while until I can cry again"
-Emmure

Just A Dime A Dozen

We fixed our game ideas, presented them, worked on the paper prototype, and I just uploaded all the information on our games to the team wiki and we should be set for a while. Shawn left early and I was left to fend for myself,but we have most of our stuff completed. I am still trying to get a grip, today isn't as bad as some of my other days. My band booked two more shows, one in Summersville on the 28th of this month and we are playing my best friends 17th birthday party. I have a lot on my shoulders I mean some people might have it worse then me,but you don't know me if you think I have the life....this isn't the American Dream


"Here's where we prove all your fairytales wrong, this all stops tonight, swim in your sea of smoke until your lungs lose the fight."

-A Day To Remember

She's On The Western Coast....

Well, we filled out a survey today for the MIT grant and it was really simple and quick. We are now updating everything as it should be. The team thought of 3 game ideas, at first we had one really solid good one,but we thought of two more and I am confident they will be approved and then the next step will be to pick the one WE like the most. Some days i get distracted by the thoughts I always have, I have to apologize for being distracted,but I'm in a bad place in my life right now to be honest. I don't want to show it,but there it is....out there for everyone to see, but I'm trying....i'm trying



Quote of The Day

"I Walked into your house this morning, brought the gun from our endtable, your blood was strewn across the walls, they'll find you on the bathroom floor...You should have killed me when you had the chance."
-A Day To Remember

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I'm not having a great day so far,but it's another day we have to catch up on missing work and stuff like that. I'm really nervous, tomorrow is Autumn Sunrise's first show. I'm nervous,but I can't wait! Staying stressed out isn't very good, and I don't know how to make it better. I have a lot on my mind and sometimes it pushes me to my limit of collapse. Teens everyday suffer from self mutilation, bullying, eating disorders, mental disorders, and attempted suicide. Think about someone you know and put yourself in there position and explain to me how you think they feel because a lot of people don't know how it feels until they are standing the other person's shoes..answer this How do you think they feel?

Quote of The Day

"Now is the time I will rise to my feet, wipe the spit from my face, wipe these tears from my eyes."

-Hatebreed

Open This Wound

I've been updating things today and I've been trying hard to get stuff done in school,but you can only try so hard. We learned a lot of coding and complex things with the flash program. Our mini games turned out easier than I thought. My coding turned out to have a few problems, but I got a lot of help from E.J over there. I was in this class last year and I must have just plain forgot about the coding and forgot about how to work the actionscript process. Quote of The Day

"The sun sets tonight, I'll hold you with all that I am."

-Haste The Day

Things to Distant to Hear

I've been gone for a while, a sickness of some found it's way into my lungs.
I've been doing nothing but coughing,sneezing, blowing my nose, watching t.v, and eating hot soup. I'm trying to catch up on the work I missed and I'm not sure what I need to do,but hopefully I'll figure it out. Ms.Neal wants students to film the Inventeam today after school,but I'm really sorry,but I told myself I would make a commitment to making music because I've wanted it for so long. I know education is important,but sometimes you have to think about your dreams and not the education.

quote of the day:

"I fell asleep with the lights on and I could see that you are the first one in a long time to have some faith in me."

-A Day To Remember

So Now You Are Screaming At The Top of Your Lungs

My weekend was long and stressful,but I tried to enjoy it to the fullest since it just so happened to be a three-day weekend. Shawn being the guru he is created some mad logos (Mad meaning good and crazy). We chose one as our main logo and I am more than satisfied with it. I answered Ms.Neal's question of the week and I thought that guy was insane. He did all of that for a cell phone, I don't even own a cell phone and I wouldn't do that to even get one. I'm going to start a little thing called Quote of The Week.

"I said I never should have let you go, promise me that you will stay with me forever, forever"
-Haste The Day

I Know A Ghost

....Today we had to embark and find a social issue game that we think students could make or that we think we would be able to create. Suicide Silence never sounded so good, and it's still playing as I speak cause the Fallen is the anthem.:) Anyways the game I chose was a social issue game about graffiti and art. I think I would be able to come with an idea close to this one and approach it like the creators of this game. We have a new team member...Autumn. We don't have a team name yet,but I'm trying to think of some cool, witty names for the group,but Shawn needs to manage like he's supposed...just kidding papa shawn. I'll keep everyone posted on my thoughts and the thoughts of a synthetic ghost.

Fell out of Key

TODAY!!! we commented each other's blogs and wiki pages. I added a couple classmates as friends on myglife. I'm learning a lot about the different websites we use and how to edit the pages of our accounts. We have a Hista and Robotics team meeting today after school, but unfortunately I can't make it. I've been working on trying to come with some ideas and I have a few floating around,but none that are concrete and for sure. I'm a little tired today,but today should go by fast cause you always know if you've been watching time fly by and I'm an example of the knowing.

If this is War, You are the one holding Treason

I've been trying to get a hold on life because it feels like I've been in a black cloud. We're picking a topic on our games as I speak, and attempting to contemplate a team name for ourselves,but all I'm doing is hitting that wall. I'm on the Hista and Robotics Team,but I don't think I'll be able to stay after school on Wednesdays because I have band practice and it's hard to juggle school and sing in a death metal band at the same time, so I'm just trying to harness the will to do both I guess. We have a couple game ideas, nothing big for right now. Since it's my second year and the others are new to the class we have to move at a slow pace, so they can have the same experience and knowledge me and the other four veterans have. The games should be fun and I'm looking forward to making something new, but you know me a magnet for bad luck.

You Are Wearing Your Skin Like It's To Tight

I was gone yesterday again. I didn't mean to miss school, but some things came up and I thought coming to school would make my situation worse. ummm....Today I am watching a WebEx conference video from last year. Maybe, it will answer some questions for the new students to our Globaloria Team. We covered the whole making buttons phase. In my opinion it didnt go to well cause for some reason I,Me,Xavier! is having trouble making them,but then again I could never really do it. Last year I was the one who was in charge of artwork, Game setup, and part of the actionscript. I really hope we can finish "DUI" my project from last year because I had high expectations for that game.

Bitter Sweet Goodbye

Well, I just had to start all over with my blog entry. This week has been long and complicated, and I have been having a rough time coping with the situations life has thrown at me. My laptop hasn't been working. It doesn't seem like it wants to connect to the wireless server.I have to apologize using my blog account to vent about my out of school problems,but sometimes I find it easier, and remember I said sometimes. Other than technical glitches and command cooperating difficulties, the computer overall NEEDS to be fixed. We are starting to work with flash and i have the talent i had from last year that i hope will help me get through the downfalls of these projects.

Gone Up In Smoke

This whole blog situation made me very irritated because even though we do have these accounts at school we can still access them at home. We aren't hurting anyone by posting personal things, and that should be a personal choice. The system is starting be my number one
on my hate list. I had a long weekend and this just doesn't help my mentality on any situation.
I don't know I try to keep and upper mind about things, and this isn't just about the links or restricted files on our blogs and wikis...it's about the fact that I'm struggling to keep my head above so to speak. If anyone wants to check us out on myspace you can, we aren't aloud to have links so our band name Autumn Sunrise, so if you want take a listen. My head is on a bunch of different subjects and it has been for a while. Maybe the struggling leads up to something, or maybe we are all to blind to see that the struggling is a main part of the human race.

At Every Days End

Well, hopefully we will sort out all the glitches in my wiki page. The link at the top of the page wasn't working properly. Today feels like it's gonna be groggy, and very very boring which is going to put me in a bad place and worse mood. FJASLDJ

Tearing Away Loose Ends

Alright!!!!!!!
I finally got logged onto my blogger account.
I kind of forgot the password,so it took me a while. We fixed our wikis according to how we want them set up, or at least I did. I don't think a lot of the new students no how,but they'll learn. We've been testing games on our game gallery from other schools. The comments we came up with are posted on our pages, and for some reason I have two names under Myglife website,but it probably deals with me being in this class.Today is starting out good, a little bump there getting into blogger,but I think I'm going to have a great day.

You Were Always A Good Sleeper

Alright...I missed yesterday and I'm here today.
We set up our Wiki's. We went through the repitition
just like last year. I'm pretty excited to get the videos done.
I love working with the JamTrax Program, and my teammates and i are looking
into being djs.lol

This year better be better than last.
I'm sure it will
...it WILL be better.
I will learn more
and further my teamwork skills and brainstorming techniques.